whilst sitting in a bar

How would you describe yourself in 3 words or less?

I've never been able to accomplish this task very well. Any given day, any moment I could answer differently.

I can say with 100% honesty that I don't consider myself a very courageous person. When that moment comes to say something or speak up, I can almost feel the hook appear to whisk me backstage. I keep my lips sealed and listen to others talk.

I had a moment the other day. A moment where I knew I could be courageous or listen intently. This particular time, I chose the former.

I chose to talk openly about my faith with a virtual stranger. He asked and I answered. My heart was pounding, my palms were sweaty, and I felt like I was about to step off a platform from a great distance. I get tongue-tied and awkward. I want to apologize for the depth and sometimes incomprehensibility of the Christian faith.

But there I was. Sitting in a bar, talking to someone about Jesus.

Have you ever had a moment where you felt like Jesus was nudging at your heart? I felt that so deeply. All I knew was that this person needed to know how unconditionally loved he was/is by Jesus. And the fact of the situation is - I need to know that too. I guess that's what made this experience so cool. I've been learning and being taught about the big, unmeasurable vastness of Jesus' love for me.

The conversation ended and I felt unsure. Had I said too much? Too little?

But there it was - a moment that I hope I remember. As a friend told me as I recounted the experience, that time was just as much for me as it was for him. I was preaching myself the Gospel and the truth. It's one tiny little baby step to the spirit of boldness that I know that I have. And a seriously huge testament to what the Holy Spirit can do that is completely outside of myself.